Tuesday, 10 January 2012

User Post: 365 Days to Get Over Him- Day 2

Day 2

The worst time to try to get over someone is after the holidays. Being dumped pre-holiday is bad enough. One day, you're asking him what he wants for Christmas, and you're considering a huge bag of green M&M's and an app controlled drone, and the next day he's not speaking to you. But you have a child, and this is what gets you through the holidays. You see the tree, many trees if you live in New York, and you decide which store windows are best, and you take the dog to have its picture with Santa. And you smile as you wrap gifts. And you smile as you buy your child more things than they need, because you want to make up for the fact that you are so sad now, and your kid, well they see the sadness, but they think they are the one making you sad. So you overcompensate. And bags start accumulating. You buy more wrapping paper.

But I digress- because you do make it through the holidays, only to be faced with temperatures in the teens, and please don't forget that wind chill. It's January. Winter has only just begun. You still have snow to look forward to. Your friend in San Francisco tells you he's running errands in shorts, while you are in fleece lined boots, heavy sweater and so much covering your ears that you can't hear- and that's in you apartment.

And your heart is cold. You don't feel anything. You want to cry all the time because you don't hear the continual beeping of your texts. You miss seeing that little green speech bubble on your phone. These things have been the better part of your life for 3 years, and you truly believe it was the better part of your life.

You miss the silliness of the conversations. You miss how seeing the words "Hey beautiful" made you feel. He said that a lot because he thought you were beautiful. Now no one calls you beautiful except the homeless guy that hangs out by the super market on 2 nd Avenue, and he calls the fire hydrant beautiful.

It's cold. It's windy. It's the beginning of winter. You run a million errands. You go to Kmart, because how many places in Manhattan give you the ability to buy laundry detergent, gym socks and picture frames at reasonable prices. While you're pushing your mini-cart around, you notice the Valentines things are already out. Valentine's Day. Sappy cards, stuffed animals and chocolate. You've been married for over 10 years so you and the husband don't do Valentines with each other anymore. All the effort is on the child- she will get a whole bunch of Valentines things. You tell your husband that Valentine's Day is an overpriced greeting card holiday. Part of you believes that. And part of you wants a candlelit dinner, pink flowers, truffles and champagne. And it's January 4, and while you're picking out sponges, the teddy bear with pink hearts sits across the aisle and mocks you.

This is the worst time of year to try to get over someone.

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